Sooo Danny's back in town again.. Which is awesome.. He got in town yesterday.. I went to dinner with Rachel, Dan, & Rachel's boyfriend Matt last night at Los Compadres.. So fun. Then I took Danny home, & went to spend the night at my mom's house cause I had a doctors appointment near her house in the morning.. I def got bit by a spider on my foot, & my foot got all swollen & gross. Today, after my spider bite doctors appointment, Dan & I helped my mom out with her estate sale that she's doing for Camille's dad in midtown.. It was fun. I took pictures.. && yeah. Here they areee.




( estate sale madnesssss )

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too




I guess, from here,
I can only go up.

Maybe the sun will shine today
The clouds will roll away
Maybe I won’t be so afraid
I will understand everything has its plan
Either way

"Harold is part of a society where he has no personal importance and existentially, therefore, he is without meaning. Maude, however, has survived and lives a life rich with meaning. It is in this existential crisis, shown against the backdrop of the Vietnam War, that we see the difference of how one culture, Harold, is handling one meaningless war, while another has experienced and lived beyond another war that produced a crisis of meaning, the Holocaust."



I got glasses. They will be ready tomorrow. My birthday is coming up soon, and I hope something fun happens.

well, maybe there's a god above
but all i've ever learned from love
was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
it's not a cry that you hear at night
it's not somebody who's seen the light
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Well, my cheeks may be comparable to the size of Kelly Osbourne's, but my feet are tingling from all the pain medication so it's all okay. I really need to put some ice on my cheeks. I'm slightly careless when it comes to my body -- As in, I've done everything they dentist told me not to do.. and almost nothing they told me to actually do.

You should come visit me. How could you resist.?


ha ha ha
I have no shame.

"I make music because I have a void to fill. Make no mistake about it - everyone in the entertainment industry is where they are because of the way they've chosen to fill in that void. I'm an artist, not a CPA. I'm not normal by conventional social standards, and I'll never be, so maybe I should stop worrying and just embrace the insanity a bit."

- John Mayer, in his blog

Cross my heart, hope to die
I swear I wont say what happened that night
So starting today things are gonna be all right
Your best you tried, and yeah you did fine
No better than fine, perfect in my mind
In fact, I wish your heart was mine
And I can hear the memory in my ears
Back to the years and all those tears
But hear me when I say Im glad we steered that way
Because now were here

Do you want to get away? get in the car we can leave today
Do you want to celebrate our just made little holiday?
Cus now today is your day
All that stuff you used to take
Im glad you threw all that away cus now you look so great
You never need to be afraid just know yuo went the right way

Because even though we never get things right
And it gets so hard just saying well keep trying
Its mine to decide when ill be alright

I know youre going crazy (crazy)
But happy is all that you make me (all you make me)
And things are gonna get better baby
I know everything went wrong ok (ok)
But now its time to get some better days (some better days)
Cus I dont want to keep acting this way

Cus man I know we never get things right
And it gets so old just saying well keep trying
But its mine to decide when and if ill be alright..
And thats just a thing that take time

So keep going till you know when its time, when its right
Keep showing yourself in that light
Cus back in school man that gets cruel
But one thing is true is that man now look at you
Your heart is big enough for two

Because I can hear the memories in my ears
Back to the years and all those tears
But hear me when I say Im glad because were here

I know youre going crazy (crazy)
But happy is all that you make me (you make me)
And things are gonna get better baby
I know everything went wrong ok (ok)
But now its time to get some better days (better days)
Cus I dont want to keep acting this way

Cus man I know we never get things right
And it gets so old just saying well keep trying
But its mine to decide when and if ill be alright..
And thats just a thing that take time

So, clothes really do make the man.
Stay tuned.


( ha ha ha new. )

Why do human beings insist on being so unbelievably difficult in even doing the simplest of tasks? -- I've got to stay on task today. It's been a long while since sleep has failed me, & I'm my question is.. 'Will I bring it?' - I can if I stay on task. My task being, well, anything that involves concentration. Paper, a pen. A marker for drawing a big 'X' on the blonde bitch that I pay for skin cancer laser light beds. Not on her hand, though. That could be mistaken for something cool, or something that's apparently totally uncool nowadays. Either option could go both ways, really. Different strokes for different folks. Different folks sing different notes at karaoke bars on Friday nights. The challenge was thrown my way, but a b-b-blizzard snow storm blew us to a McDonalds for a free for blizzard snow storms special. I like the cold, as it knows. But in Memphis, snow doesn't stay long enough for you to really enjoy it.

Act II is soon to come.
Or.. Maybe just some photos.

haha.

"And all the feelings I have felt are because I wanted to feel them, all the things I have done have been done because I wanted to do them. The goals I have accomplished have been accomplished because I wanted to accomplish them. Everything emotion I have felt, I have wanted. I have wanted every action that I have done and that has been done to me. It is only because of me. There is only me. There is only me to blame."

"All the book learning in the world, all the "ideas," will not enable one to play Hedda Gabler, and all the gab about the "arc of the character" and "I based my performance on.." is gibberish. There is no arc of the character, and one can no more base a performance on an idea than one can base a love affair on an idea. These phrases are nothing but talismans of the actor to enable him or her to ward off evil, and he evil they attempt to ward off is the terrifying unforeseen." - David Mamet

Hey, you & me should get out of here. Or maybe go out less.. Because we're at our very best when our only plans are to make plans with the sun to pay us a visit every morning before we go to sleep together in my bed. Do you find yourself wishing your home is where my heart is? It can be.

I decided it's better to write like there's someone to write about as opposed to either not writing at all, or forcing out pathetic 'love you, love me not' bulletins. My money's on self-fulfilling prophecies & trying to remember that I'm just a kid.

Love you.

"I know you don’t love me but…
Can I sit in your char?
It looks so comfortable way over there.
I won’t break it I swear.
I just need a place to sit down in this how winter air
So can I sit in your chair?

I know you don’t love me but..
Can I sleep in your bed?
Because you see, my bed is uh.. Dead.
I’ll sleep at the foot, and you at the head.
It’s good for the blood, or so I’ve read.
So can I sleep in your bed?

I know you don't love me but..
Will you dance with me?
Don't worry, no one will see.
I know the electric 1-2-3
So will you make me that lucky?
Will you give one little dance to me?

I know you don’t love me but..
Will you hold my hand?
Just tell them I’m with the band.
It doesn’t have to be grand.
Or I can just sit while you stand,
If you don’t want to hold my hand.

I know you don’t love me but…
Can we be together?
And I don’t mean forever.
It’s just that now is slowly becoming never.
And I don’t want to be without,
When it’s time to go to the place that is better
So can we be together?

I know you don’t love me but..
I love you."

Remember me, I used to be the best time buddy
That you couldn't wait to see
But getting old, it takes its toll
And hearts getting broken lead to people growing cold